My parents know about our struggles with infertility. Honestly, I don't know if I could not talk about it with them--my mom and I talk almost daily. Our conversations are rarely about anything important, I just need to chat with her. Shes always been there for me when I needed her and now I need her more than ever before. I don't tell my mom knitty gritty details--but she knows the basic gist of things like treatments and what exactly is wrong. My dad is a little more removed from the situation--he knows we've been trying and having some problems. He's pretty perceptive though, so he probably knows more than that, we just don't really talk about it much. I know he'd drop everything and come and be with me if I needed him though--thats just the kind of guy he is.

My in-laws, however, are another matter. My husband hasn't told them anything about us even trying to get pregnant again. I'm not really sure but I think it bothers me a little. My in-laws and I don't really get along. They are pretty hard on N and I--I don't know if its that they dissapprove of me or what but we just aren't close.

I live in fear of talking to them about it--getting caught on the phone and having them ask if we've though about trying again. I don't really feel its my place to tell them--they should probably hear it from N but, then again, I don't want to lie and say we aren't trying or that we are trying without help. Infertility is something I've talked about with a lot of people. Its nothing I'm ashamed of--I compare it to diabetes--its just a disease. I don't know why I care so much--i rarely talk to these people and yet I care what they think.